But mostly about my job. I feel like when I'm complaining about my job it comes off like I'm "holier than thou" because I have a job and I help out with the income. I don't want anyone to feel that way. I hope I haven't offended anyone.
Here are my reasons behind working:
1. We are in debt up to our eye balls - okay not that bad but it feels like it sometimes. Yep I just aired some of our dirty laundry out on the World Wide Web. Whoops. But seriously... Let's be honest.. who isn't in debt.. even a little? Mortgages, Cars, Credit Cards, Student loans, Personal Loans.. whatever it is.. there's debt. And we currently are trying to pay off our stupid mistakes. IE Store Credit Cards and 2 car loans at once.
2. As we are trying to pay down debt as much as possible for me to NOT work and be a real full time SAHM, I like to have yummy groceries and be able to pay for the essentials and some perks. Like a shirt here and there... or going on a date. I don't need to work as MUCH as I am but I can't really work less than 30 hours right now I don't have a choice (unless I get a new job). And before the change at work, I had the choice to work less than 30 hours and I did so.. So it was like I wasn't working and we got behind and into more debt.
3. I, for the most part, like working. Trust me most of the time it sucks and I just want to be home with my boys and be lazy at night with them. But other times, I'm grateful for a little "me" time even if its typing for 6 (or more) hours straight. Its me time and I'll take it.. most of the time I get to listen to a great book or talk or music. And when I don't have to work anymore, I'm going to have to take a little me time shut away in my room.. or after bed time.
I'm grateful for my job even when I'm constantly complaining. I'm grateful for the time I have now to work as much as possible to pay off debt as fast as possible so that in a year I don't have to work.
In Pres Uchtdorf's talk he spoke of the Golden Ticket of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory:
“In their anxiousness, people began to forget the simple joy they used to find in a candy bar. The candy bar itself becomes an utter disappointment if it does not contain a golden ticket,” President Uchtdorf said. Whatever a “golden ticket” may represent to each person, President Uchtdorf warned Relief Society sisters to not put their happiness on hold as they wait for a future event, or golden ticket, to appear.
“The lesson here,” he said,” is that if we spend our days waiting for fabulous roses, we could miss the beauty and wonder of the tiny forget-me-nots that are all around us.”
My Golden Ticket has been to be a full time SAHM and to not have to work and be financially okay. But I'm determined to make that a GOAL instead and to be Happy now. A year.. or two whatever it takes I'm okay with working for now... knowing that I won't be working my whole life. I can be happy now without my "Golden Ticket"..
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