Feeling silly

So at parenting class this week was on expressive language. They gave us hand outs and examples on what we can do as parents to help get our kids to start being vocal. A lot of it is learning by hearing. Self talk is a main one. Where I would talk about what I am doing in short phrases. Like: Mommy brush hair. Clean dish. Mommy spin spin spin. Its taking out the unneeded words which are just make it harder for kids to understand. While its good for them to hear words and I am leading by example, I feel down right silly. There's no one around just me and the boys but I feel ridiculous! I hate feeling this way cause I want to help Creighton talk! I just feel silly. Something to get over I guess.

I am really glad I get to go to these classes and see other kids (and moms) going through the same struggles. Some have more struggles. Some less. But knowing I am not alone helps with my emotions.

My thing with speech is Creighton doesn't even seem to want to talk. And he is only vocal when he's frustrated or someone's taking a toy from him or for his ba-ba (bottle and/or blanket).

Even with knowing I am not alone it gets lonely and hard. Its a struggle having an almost 2 year old not talking. It is frustrating! And I wish people didn't judge him or me for him not talking back when they ask questions to him.

Easter

I love Easter for many reasons.

I love my knowledge of Jesus Christ's sacrifice and his resurrection so that I can live again after I die.

I love the Easter songs. I'm hoping our ward choir is singing tomorrow!

I love the Easter festivities at my in laws. The egg hunt is awesome! Taking turns as a family. Last year a new tradition started. Each of the 8 kids got a share of the eggs. And we can put anything we want in them. We got 15 eggs this year. Ten of them are filled with papers with stickers on them and those stickers match the stickers on wrapped up prizes.
Some of them are Easter bunny ears that have a crown on it, a huge ball, peeps, chocolate bunnies and a bubble gun! So fun. I'm excited for my boys! And I like how far it is. Everyone will get the same amount of eggs! We just hope to find the good ones!

I don't like doing the Easter bunny. I loved it as a kid. And Adam loved his (they went on a hunt for their baskets). But this year I haven't been on the ball about lots of things. I should have explained to Cayden what Easter really means like how Christmas isn't about Santa. Maybe next year I'll be better at it. And I'll be the fun mom. Maybe :)

Deer!!!!

My obsession with deer probably dates back to my one semester at Snow. My new friend, Laralee, and I went driving one night and chased down some deer in neighborhoods. We also killed some poor rabbits on accident! Later I was on my way back to my dorm after going to SLC and had to stop for a big herd to cross the small highway.

When driving on freeways I'd look for dead ones. I know, sick! There's even been a dead one on a road near our house. We don't live THAT close to mountains but we do live near a railroad and I think they follow that down.

Last night was the second time I has seen a herd late at night on my way home. The first time I followed them into a neighborhood and they were eating people's grass! I got all giddy and a bit jealous they weren't in MY yard! Haha. Couldn't get close enough that time to get a picture. But last night they were just there on the side of the road under a street light! Perfect lighting for 2 am! I can't describe my giddyness over deer. It's a bit insane but they're so cool! Maybe its growing up in Missouri and Vegas?

I absolutely love Utah for many reasons but the DEER are pretty high up on the list!

Bunch of things.

one.
Creighton had his first session with his speech therapist this morning. It was completely different than Cayden's were. But we're in different school districts since we bought our house. But this therapist, Katie, is great. She's very knowledgeable and full of ideas. From what I described from a typical day, she was able to pinpoint Creighton exactly. He loves to wrestle and be hugged. Katie says some kids crave the compressions on their bodies. Like squeezing. And I learned that Creighton uses a lot of cues I missed that he likes certain games or squeezes.

All this info came on handy not even 20 minutes later. Creighton got super cranky. All my usual helps weren't helping. He's gotten this way before and I'd just give him a bottle. This time I laid him on his back and started at his shoulders, giving somewhat hard squeezes and worked my way down. By the time I got to his ankles he was putting his feet in my hands to keep going. I continued to do this. Amazingly my busy body baby just laid there and got more and more relaxed. It was remarkable to see the change.

two.
Cayden is an attention hog when Creighton is getting it all. But I love him. He is so smart. And he just played me the first part of Twinkle Twinkle little Star on the xylophone! Crazy. I didn't teach him either. Maybe Adam played it for him. But he's a genius! He even tells me so! ;)

three.
I am 25. Weird. It sounds so old. I still feel 18 or 19 most days. But I've been married almost 5 1/2 years. I have a 4 yr old and an almost 2 yr old. Crazy!! And I'm a homeowner!! I'm shocked at my life sometimes! I'm so very happy with my life. There's tons of stress and things that go wrong but I love it. No matter what I have my family!! :)

four.
Adam is my rock star!! :) he made my birthday amazing. He has made our life together amazing!! I'm so lucky. He has made me feel pretty and worth it. He has made me confident. He is a great father!

It's my Birfday week!

In a perfect world I'd have the week off! Or even my actual birthday. But with my foot and having so many days off, I just simply forgot to ask for it off.

But I'm excited!!

The plan is to have Adam's mother come over with the crazies. We will go to lunch, get a massage and adjustment and then go shopping! I'm excited to have time with Adam alone. He has promised to make it special!

I think I feel like my birthday should be special because of how I grew up.

Every birthday morning I'd wake up to signs just for me all over the place. Some times when I was in elementary  school, my mom would get me out of school and take me to lunch and then shopping. I have very treasured memories of my birthdays. Except my 18th.... but I won't go there. Family is the only thing you can count on!!

My family Always made each birthday kid feel extra special! I have passed on some of the traditions to my kids. I just LOVE birthdays!!

Not feeling myself.

So lately I've been not feeling myself. I got what I thought at the time was a stomach bug on Sunday night. I couldn't sleep I was so nauseous and felt like running to the bathroom every five minutes. (Sorry) I was very feverish, so much that having anything rub against my skin would be painful. This lasted all of Monday too. Tuesday I woke up feeling almost 100% better.

I was excited to finally not feel chained to the bed.

Tuesday night came and I went to work. Started off good. Then by ten, I was feeling very feverish again. And then the nauseousness set in. And I was feeling the need to run to the bathroom. Not fun. Got off early due to low volume of mail.

Wednesday came and with sleep behind me I felt better. But I wasn't hungry. Food just sounded, smelled and tasted gross. But I got through the day and night. The day was far better than Monday.

Thursday, I woke up feeling about the same. Breakfast wasn't eaten. Nothing sounded good enough. I felt sick just thinking about food. But we set off to do groceries and my foot appointment.

At Costco I was suddenly STARVING!  So I got a slice of pizza. And if you don't know it is my favorite food of all time. It has even caused a fight between Adam and me.

It was amazing on an empty stomach. I wasn't nauseous anymore.
Go to dinner. Could barely eat it.

I am an eater. A picky one but obviously an eater. I wouldn't be the size I am by not eating.

So I'm confused. I'm barely eating. And I don't know why I'm feeling so sick. My body is not my friend right now. Hoping this goes away before my birfday! Not cool to feel this way on your birthday! :)

Dave Ramsey and such.

we've decided to get our financial crap together!!

so we got Dave Ramsey's book on CD and Adam's been listening to it on the way to work and back.

It has given us hope. And I'm excited to start using his ideas to help us become debt free and financially independent.  And I've come to terms that I'm going to need to work for longer if we want to get out of debt faster so that we don't have ANY debt when I quit. I don't want to quit and then go "oh crap" and have to go back. And to be able to have left over money to be able to shop. I mean what? haha

Fun fact for ya.... I just realized that the number months Adam and I were born in are the number days of the boys' birthdays.  Adam born in 09 (Sept) and cayden was born on Oct 9th.  I was born in Feb- 02 and Creighton was born on the 2nd of June. So cool huh? Maybe not but I have a big thing about numbers.

I need to do more pictures. Next time :)