"a living will..."

I was going over my instructions for my surgery on Tuesday.. and there's a list of things to bring. And number 3 on the list was.. yep you guessed it.. a living will.

now, i've been "put out" before for my wisdom teeth and when I was a baby girl getting tubes. 

side note- I don't have a lot of memories about my child hood but I do remember being wheeled off in a red wagon to the surgery and my uncle Ed (who was an ENT) pulling me and smiling. And then waking up to him and my mom. The red wagon might be wrong.. not sure :)

I've also had surgery - 2 c-sections. Those were major and didn't really cause as much as pain as anticipated. 

But... I'm nervous.  I have this horribly morbid thought that I'm going to die on the table from a foot surgery. I'm not really sure how i feel about being "put out" and waking up in what will seem like 20 seconds. 

I'm also nervous about getting an infection, having it bust open again, the pain, having to wear a boot for 3 weeks and using crutches. 

I'm a ball of nerves! Probably why my face has decided that I'm a 14 year old girl again. :) yay for me! Oh.. and not to be TOO personal- but here it goes.. I'm due for my "special visitor" tomorrow too... YAY! I can't be more excited I tell ya! 

Now off to clean for my Father in law who is coming over to watch the boys... Fabulous! :) our house is a wreck since I fell down my stairs. I think I can finally laugh about that now.. haha :)