FYI: TMI

Well it is going to be a TMI kind of post. I apologize.. You should stop reading now if you don't wanna know. But I feel the need to write this down.

Okay.. Still with me?

Good? ;)

So I have not had a normal monthly flow since Christmas. I wasn't too concerned since I had just stopped taking my birth control pills in order to try for baby #3. And I had read that usually your "monthlys" are irregular for awhile. Well 6 months is longer than a while and I took about 26 pregnant tests - all negative. 

I decided to go to the doctor. I had to get my blood drawn so they could test for about half a dozen things, including a pregnancy test just to be sure. All came back negative. Which is a good thing.

My doctor told me in a nice way I was overweight. I figured that one out. But my hip fat is turning my estrogen into more estrogen.. (or something...) and therefore I am not ovulating, which is depressing especially when you're trying for another baby.

But it is my own fault.. I got myself into this state fat.

I also prayed that I would have the motivation to loose weight before trying for baby #3. Well here it is!! I have never been inspired or motivated to loose weight! I want baby #3!! And I will do anything to do it.. Even exercise- Yuck!