finally fed up!

I'm fed up:

-with being so fat that walking through the aisle at work give me a panic attack cause 80% of the time I bump into the back of people's chair.

- with being so fat that I feel so unpretty.

- with being so fat that I feel unhealthy and am constantly worrying that I'm going to die of being fat.

- with being so fat that I'm so lazy I find it hard to play with my boys for long.

- with being so fat that I know people look at me in disgust.

- with being so fat that I have to shop in the bigger girl section.

- with being so fat that my jeans cost almost double the size of "normal" size pants

- with being so fat that all I think about is food and yummy fattening food.

- with being so fat that I'm not happy with myself and I disgust myself.


So... what am I going to do about it? I'm getting a gym membership at the REC center or at Gold's gym.  Depends on prices and how the child care at the REC center is only open from 9 to 10:30 am and 5:30 to 8 pm. and I think Gold's child care is all the time. but I can do 9 am if its cheaper. :)

2012 is the year that I will no longer be the size I am. I want to be happy with my body and this is the year that I am just so sick of this feeling that I NEED to do something about it- finally!

I'm going to be creating a blog that'll most likely be private for a while. And do monthly pictures and weekly weigh ins (with only the weight loss recorded on the blog) until I'm to a weight that I feel comfortable to post :) I'm doing it! There's no if ands and (hopefully no more BIG) but(t)s! haha ;)